I’m writing this Sunday night because I have to get up at 5 am to get ready to take Nikki to school. Sometimes I don’t have the time to deal with the blog while I’m on this schedule.
Anyway, I’m really bad. I can’t breathe. I feel like I’m suffocating. My chest burns and my inhalers are not helping.
Why? you ask.
The answer is simple. Because people are selfish. Actually, smokers are selfish.
The stupid tubes of tobacco have been proven bad for people yet there are those who still light them up. They don’t care if it kills them. They also don’t...
23 Aug
I think stress has totally rewired me on the inside. This last year and still now, the stress in my life has conspired to change everything for me. How I write, how I deal with my day, how I sleep at night. Pretty much everything. For the foreseeable future, things are not going to change. That means I need to live with this monkey on my back.
In the past, I’ve deal with mega-stress. I’ve suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder from the onset of sudden massive stress like my parents dying 6 months apart. I’m beyond that now and I haven’t felt those odd disassociated...
16 Aug
My weekends are always busy. Usually, I have writing to do and stuff to do around the house. This weekend I was exceptionally busy, but I didn’t get anything written and my kitchen looks like Hiroshima.
On Saturday I ran some errands and then headed out to meet Z.A. Maxfield for lunch. Lunch with ZAM is the most fun thing. There is no one else in the world with whom I can eat with my fingers and talk about characters who are gay. ZAM had ribs and I had chicken tenderloins and we both had barbeque sauced fingers as we discussed character angst and the car she bought Mr. ZAM for Father’s...
2 Aug
Do you remember when you were 20 or so and everything you felt seemed so overwhelming, larger than life, and never ending? I remember those days. OMG. I was such a drama queen. Not so much overtly as in my head.
Those days were brought back to me this weekend when Nikki (Motley) broke up with her boyfriend. This is the boyfriend everyone had reservations about because he was possessive (and talking about getting married and having kids when neither of them even has a job) and did controlling things like yell at her demanding she hang up if she was on the phone with me and we were disagreeing....
12 Jul
Yes, this is the construction zone today. It’s not pretty yet. It’s a mess, but as I promised months ago when I said I was going to do this…the bats have remained. Can’t get rid of them.
I don’t know why I chose today to do this. Maybe because the babies popped my brand new air mattress during their 4th of July fireworks freak out last night which meant that as soon as the air depleted from the mattress…I woke up. At four-fucking-thirty in the morning. I had an inkling it might happen I guess cause something made me buy a spacefoam mattress topper online yesterday...
5 Jul
On Friday when I got home from work, Rott wasn’t home. I figured he’d gone to see his mom so I didn’t think anything of it. He called me after I’d already changed into house clothes and had begun to work my way through the day’s email. He’d been to see his mom and was upset about something. He’d attempted to tell her what was bothering him, but she didn’t get it so it just sorta made him feel worse.
At any rate, he didn’t want to come home, wanted to do something out of the house which was the reason for his call. Now, Rott’s not much...
21 Jun
Rott and I watched the Hangover last night. We’d seen it before, but it’s funny and we needed a mindless laugh. The movie did make me think about memory and all the stuff that’s in our heads. When I speak with someone I’ve known for years and they bring up something from our collective pasts, I’ve noticed that sometimes I don’t remember the event right away. The other person has to say, “Oh, but don’t you remember that we did this…” Then they give some details and the memory comes crashing back to me. I find this happening more and more.
On...
14 Jun
Who stole my weekend? Where did it go? I could swear it was coming and then my groceries got delivered, I had some ice cream, and BOOM! My weekend was gone! Who would be so cruel as to take my weekend?
I hate it when time zooms by so quickly I wonder where the eff the days went. Thank God I’m not alone when it comes to this. Rott took out the stuff to build my new computer tower. It’s been sitting in the closet now for three weeks. He decided that in order to build my new tower, he needed to clean up the dining room area of the kitchen where typically there’s the 5-gallon bottles...
29 Mar
I should probably tell you not to ask. But you know me. I have to tell! LOL I live in a condo. There are four condos in my building. There are two connected garages for my building. Each condo gets ONE spot in the garages. On each side of the garages is one parking space. There are three people in the front condo, each with a car. There are two roomies in one condo, each with a car. There’s a couple at the bottom of my stairs and they each have a car. And… Rott and I each have a car.
So let’s do the math. Six available parking spaces. Nine cars. Someone is gonna be ass...
8 Mar
Oh, that old saying… I’m trotting it out because I was in a haze due to lack of sleep this morning and forgot (yes, I know, how the fuck could I FORGET?) that it was Monday. Oy to the vey. So it’s still Monday here on the West Coast and I’m gonna post my Marcus Monday. Heh.
I was up late on Sunday (until almost 1 am) because Rott decided to spend some money. He blew out a speaker last week and since he cannot be without music, and cannot abide listening to music with crackly one-sided, sounds like shit busted speakers… he went to Frys Electronics. He went to buy...
22 Feb
I’ve had so much time off lately with the holidays falling as they did that I’m not very motivated to go to work. And the truth of the matter is that I’m not very motivated with a lot of things right now. I’m kinda in a BLECH mood. Here’s some of the things I’ve been doing. I think it will explain best.
I took down rottnroll.com so I could move it to new hosting. Cancelled the old hosting last night then didn’t bother to put in the nameservers to get rottnroll.com back up. Instead, Rott and I watched Taken. (Good flick BTW.)
I started to put the final scenes...
4 Jan
I was left blinking in a bit of shock at the annual company Christmas party on Saturday night. No, it’s not about who showed up with whom, although there was a bit of that kinda shock rippling through the room. I got into a little discussion with my friend Liz (the one I jokingly call the “Evil” HR Manager after Catbert) and one of the VPs. A female VP. Who is reading Tales of the Darkworld Volume One.
I’ll admit to having a little case of the jitters over her reading my book. After all, the vampires own a cemetery! She’s one of my bosses. I kinda worried whether...
14 Dec
